If only I bothered listening in Mathematics Lectures, I wouldn't be so stressed up over trying to comprehend my Mathematics lecuture notes now.

If only I had started studying right after AB Camp, I wouldn't be frantically trying to cramp everything in and giving myself so much pressure.

If only I had thought twice and listened to God before committing to my first relationship, I wouldn't have to deal with the occasional resurfacing of past memories and thoughts.

If only I had worked harder last year and clarified all my work with my teachers, I wouldn't be so insecure and lost at everything I do now.

If only life weren't that complicated...

If only...

I'm super sick of all the if-onlys in my life. What's done is done and I'm so not gonna let the past come back and haunt me anymore. Studies, relationship... I don't wanna be tied down by history. It's time to let go I guess... time to soar and be who I'm supposed to be... fly.

"Red bull gives you wings!"

Haha. True. But my wings have always been there la... God given I guess. I've been trying to take off but I guess there's just too much holding me down. Time to let go. Cast everything away and take His yoke upon myself... it's lighter and I shall ascend once again...

I shall study... I shall love. All risk failure but I'll not waste any more opportunities. They only come once anyway... I don't want to look back and realise that I've given up a treasure. I want to believe and realise that I've not made a wrong decesion.

I hope.