Saturday, July 15, 2006
It's just like a black box, divided into two by a glass wall. She's on one side and me, on the other. It's just the both of us... So near yet, so far. Haix...
It's just so weird la.
Everything's all pent up inside...
Lost.
Why can't we just be friends?
Why?
It's just stupid la... I don't wanna go on avoiding her my whole life. =(
I don't think it's worth it to do so.
Haix.
Why?
There's so much I can't put down.
You?
Why can't we just be on talking terms?
Is it that hard?
Perhaps?
But can we even try?
Haix.
I'm super empty now. X-Country's over and yea... there's no one left le lo. StAJe is gonna have to fade and I'll be there again, alone. Perhaps it's good this way. Maybe I can be like Sabby. Just friends around me... that will do. What more can I ask for anyway? I've got really nice and understanding friends le la. Thank God for them...
I'm really dry and empty again la. Being single's fun but not to the extent again that I feel so unwanted again. Ah! I find it weird not talking to yvonne... I find it weird that we're avoiding each other. Oh well.. I guess I'd never understand what she's going through. Blahx. Oh well..
Singlehood as I told Marcus, is a blessing in disguise. Well, I'll embrace it. =) Studying is more promising anyway. Yea lo.
I really wish that one day, I'll be able to talk to yvonne again... as a friend or if it's not too much, an older brother or something? Haix. Oh well...
Time will tell it's story I guess... meanwhile, singlehood shall be enjoyed!
