Friday, July 07, 2006
Ok! It's about time I've gotten up from my own fantasy world where everything goes my way le... StAJe rehearsals made me think again - if life's that screwed, am I just gonna live it as it is? And with modernization and the pace of life kicking up, am I going to procrastinate and blame everyone around me but myself for my current plights?
Bryan did have a point when he was talking about getting this stupid microwave like thingy for his future daughter... supposed to simulate a mother's rock and cuddle so the baby can fall asleep automatically. Inhumane as it seems to deprive the child of its parental care at its infant stage, he did have a point for the amount of responsibilities that he's afraid to bare thus, the over-reliance on technology.
I am against his actions but yea, it is a fact of life. Common Test results for me are more or less screwed le... and I don't wish to adopt the escapist approach to it anymore. Have been running from it too much le. It's time to get down to work and really get my studies in order. Grrrrx... I hate failure and thus, I'm gonna make sure I don't fail no more! I'll really end up hating myself even more if I don't pick up soon. I hate studying but I shall not run from it... As Bryan countlessly repeated today: with great power [as a parent in his context... as a student in mine] comes great responsibility. Yea lo. I'm responsible for my own future and also to God... it's high time I worked and pulled myself out from the failure region le. I'm really sick of failing. Doesn't help that I don't take it well but oh well.. over le so no use crying over spilt milk. Move on lo.
I sincerely hope that when I one day, re-read this entry, I'll be studying hard. If not, Kai, you seriously have disappointed yourself once again. Ya lo.
Main focus in life now is to study.. ok, that's after God but well, studies shall take first place now la. It concerns my future anyway. Relationship and work can wait le... they're still VERY important but well, for the sake of a happy future (after marriage and all that stuff), sacrifices have to be made now! Hahax. Time I woke up le la...
Yup! It's the final lap and since I'm a sprinter... it's time to get the show on the road. Just make sure I keep my end in mind and sight... then yea, sprint to Glory! Hahax. =)
