Tuesday, August 15, 2006
"Don't be afraid, just believe."
- Mark 5:36b -
He's helped me through and I know He's at work again. As childish and cliche as this may sound, I really do love my Father in heaven. Hmmm... The future's pretty vague for me now. I know I'd get married to a lovely wife and have kids but well, I really wonder how I'd be. I guess there's this part of me that again, fears letting go of what I have now. As much as I dislike AJC, I can't really bare to leave the people that I've met there behind. Everyone in the college means smth to me... everyone, some more than others but, everyone. Ah... as they say, time flies. All will but fade to memories. I'm just scared of the world out there I guess. But at the same time, I know He'd be there. Mmmmx.. More of You Father and less of me. Things are changing and I'm afraid. Mark 5:36b was a little reminder to me just now to hold on for I'm not alone. Well, it's true I suppose. I know that God's always there and He's even sent people to lift me up each time I fall...
The Glass Menagerie is a scary book. I've seen a lot from reading the play. I see myself as Jim... the fallen American dream. Haix. Hopefully I, like him, can pick myself up and do well. In addition, I see what Tennessee Williams is driving at. The "plastic theatre" form not only detatches the play from reality but also, states the plastic nature of humanity. How true. Do we really understand anyone? Lies and truths are convoluted and we are all just as Shakespeare would term it, "badly casted actors." We're all so plastic. Hahax. But at the sametime, as fragile as glass - like Laura's glass menagerie collection. And like how Jim came and broke her unicorn's horn off, that "long awaited something that we have all been waiting for" is actually the thing that may break us or well, free us from our weirdness in society. Literature is a scary subject. It makes you think. Oh well... food for thought ba!
Mmmmmx... life moves on - like it or not. I kinda like my life now but it's a little too mundane and stressful ba. I like the comfort zone though. Hehex. Singaporeans are all sheltered and pamered. Oh well...
A'levels, here I come! =) Just believe!
