Friday, August 04, 2006
Anderson Junior College - Non Mihi Solum.
Given a choice, would I stay there for another 4months to complete my A'level education or should I embrace the ideology of escapism and dissolve into a different system where I no longer have to push myself over my limits to perform.
S$500,000, 3 years bond with LaSalle and then another 3 years bond with Singapore Acadamy of Fine Arts. Starting pay at $4500 and study allowance at $2500 monthly. All study expenses covered for except loudging. SIA Scholarship.
Received the call yesterday from SIA LarSalle. Very tempting. I really ought to leave AJ now and just put all the nonsense behind. Persue my passion and forte? Hahax. I'm sure Yvonne will be damn happy - she'll never need to see me again. Ah well... maybe I really ought to leave the college.
One by one, I see my classmates drop out. Maybe it's my turn now. Then I won't have to take my A'levels! How wonderful can that be?
But I'd view my acceptance of the scholarship as a sign of failure on my part. Escapism? Hmmm.. I don't know. Is this just plain fear on my part of not being able to cope with the main stream's rigor or well, just a chance for me to better myself off in society? I'd be out in the workforce in 7years at most if I accept the scholarship. I get to do classes in army - probably will be joining the SAF Band or something. Interesting eh? SIA has power lo.
I dunno. There are only two reasons why I'd stay in AJ:
1. To convince myself that I'm not an acadamic failure and a misnomer in society
2. *best left unsaid*
Tough decesions. But if I leave the college, imagine how many people will be like popping champaign?!
1. Teachers will definately be relieved cause they don't have a crazy student to council and bother about anymore
2. Principal won't have to bother about me dragging the school results down
3. There'll most probably be another DSA Award up for grasp in StAJeWorks
4. Classmates won't have to deal with my nonsence anymore
5. Yvonne won't have to see me again and ya, she'll be a happier person
6. One less person to compete with for a position in University (that's if I do well la)
7. Xav, Shan and some other people can benefit from the huge statch of food in my lockers
8. That thingy in school won't have to work overtime in school to come bother me at night - it can go sleep beside the council room or in LT5's Dungeon for all I care.
Woah! Nice long list eh?
Well, I'll consider the offer. 75% chance that I'd take it. It's promising anyway. I get immeadiate job security and if all else fails, I have the Singapore Arts Council or MOE to work in.
I'll miss AJ. I dunno. I don't really want to commit myself to this extent of a pure arts job but eh... consider ba. It's attractive but not entirely what I want in life. But see, it's attractive and pays damn well. Pay's expected to rise to about $12,000 after 5 years according to my lecturer... given my current reputation and qualification. Hahax. Ah well...
I'll decide. I can't say for sure. I dunno. It's a choice that I wish to make alone. Professionalism? Hahax. We'll see if I can hold myself to what I believed in all these while.
But as Chan Jun Kai, I know I'd never take up the scholarship. It's not me to do so - and perhaps not what I really want in life. Haix. I'll think about it.
It's appealing and promising.
SIA Scholar.
That's a nice term to go into the working world with.
We'll see.
